When Life Hands You Lemons…And Then Takes Them Back

Yesterday was interesting. A week or two ago I had submitted to work on a film that Alex Wolff was working on. Because of transportation issues I wasn’t able to get to set to be an extra, so I was pretty bummed out. Just for the record, I don’t usually do extra work, much less unpaid extra work, but it’s Alex Wolff, ya know?

Also a week or two ago I decided I wanted to study in LA next fall. Honestly, I’m still not sure if this is a desire of mine or God’s, but I’m praying about it. Anyways, I was (and am) worried about how to find the money for this endeavor. I had also interviewed with a camp that I’d really like to work with and really wanted to get an offer for that camp for next summer.

So yesterday morning a I got an email from a casting person with the Alex Wolff film asking for my availability on Friday and Saturday. So I said I’d love to come to set Saturday. The casting lady says that’s great, that I’d actually get paid(!!!), and that she just has to check with the AD. After waiting all day, I get an email saying I’m “on reserve” and that they went with women who looked a bit older than me. So basically if someone dies I get to drop everything and go to set on Saturday.

Also yesterday morning-ish I got an email form that camp offering me a job – at their day camp in Chicago. I was really excited! However, after calling my mom, I was less excited. She reminded me that I’d be making significantly less than last summer, and obviously this wouldn’t help me raise enough funds to study in LA next fall.

So right now I’m really confused – why does life keep handing me lemons and then taking them away? Also, could you pray for me/keep me in your thoughts about this LA thing? I really, REALLY want to go, but I’m really discouraged because of my money situation.I thin it would be a great learning and missions opportunity. I would study film and acting in a Christian environment, but be out of my comfort zone in a huge city, and I think it could potentially be the best semester of my college career.

Love you all,


Should Christian Women Pursue Men? And, Why Do Women Want Boaz?

I don’t really understand why girls say they are waiting on their Boaz – he didn’t really do anything except accept his obligation to marry her. I mean he could have rejected her so I guess that was nice. Plus he was like, way older than Ruth. I mean, look, Boaz was honorable. However, he was all like “I’ll take if you if the guy who’s supposed to take you won’t.” That’s cool and all, but not really the kind of guy I want.

Lately I’ve been wondering if it’s Biblical for women to pursue men. I am the type of person who goes out and gets what I want. So I struggle with whether or not I should do that with relationships. If I like a guy, my thought is “hey, why don’t I ask him to coffee?” However, the last time I did that (this week), I got friend-zoned anyways.

Pretty much everyone I’ve asked, men and women alike, believe that men should pursue women. Some had Bible verses to back up their opinions, while others really just grew up learning that men make the first move, much like I did, much like most people do. Let’s see what the Bible says.

Proverbs 18:22 says “He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the LORD.” So obviously this can be translated as a man finding a woman. This verse is used by pretty much everyone arguing that men should pursue women.

1 Corinthians 11:3 says “But I want you to understand that the head of every man is Christ, the head of a wife is her husband, and the head of Christ is God.” So men are meant to be leaders in the household, Biblically speaking. However, this really says nothing about dating, in my opinion.

I could go on, but mostly the verses support men pursuing women. Technically speaking there is no 100% correct answer because the Bible never talks about dating, as people in the Bible never dated, they were set up by their families.

The real question in my mind – is it going to make God angry/am I going to hell if I ask a guy out? …Probably not. However, I do feel as though I need to submit this part of my life to Him, and that may or may not mean not pursuing guys, no matter how impatient I am.

Tell me in the comments your feelings/opinions/Biblical views on this topic and the post as a whole.

Ciao for now!

P. S. – Also, you may have noticed I changed blogging platforms, and that is because my website (http://www.celinatolbert.webs.com ) isn’t working that well. Also, I really love WordPress.